Picking Up The Pieces & Moving On.

I have done this so many times before just to fall flat on my face because i gave it up before i could even enjoy it. I've made up my mind this time and once i'm back on top i'm sticking with it. I may fall down a lot but i always find my way back to the top. I'm redoing my yearly goals and making them a little more easier for now since i got thrown off track but i will get there. Right now my goal is to save money get a car and move home as soon as possible. This chapter of my life maybe closed but there are new ones opening for me and with the help, engorgement of my amazing family and friends ill be back on top in no time.

I wish the best for him and hope he realizes his mistakes and will eventually fix them and find someone to love him as much as i did. Ill pray for you and wish you nothing but good things. As for me in time i will move on to better things and will find happiness when its my time but until then im going to focus on my goals and hand and worry about love later.

The job at Victoria Secret is looking really promising she said that if push comes to shove shell just go ahead and put me in orientation and will call me on Monday and let me know as soon as she does. Then its time to research cars, save money and then put a down payment and work on getting back home to my moms house. Then i can really pick up the pieces of a shattered heart and move on to bigger and better things that the lord has planned for me; whatever they may be.

For now here are some encouraging pictures and quotes that are keeping me going right now.

How Do You Know?

Im not really sure where to start this post as my feelings are all over the place right now, im hoping this helps me get them in order. After the past two weeks of Ryan being home i ask myself how do you know when to leave? Im not going to put my business out there for the world to know but I dont think this question should cross my mind as much as it does. When is the fighting going to stop, is he ever going to care about me rather than someone else, am i good enough? I just really thought things would change this time and it seems like their not going to. I gave up everything for him and it seems like it was the second biggest mistake of my life because look at where it has left me. I just dont know anymore. Please Pray For Me.

How Do You Know?

Im not really sure where to start this post as my feelings are all over the place right now, im hoping this helps me get them in order. After the past two weeks of Ryan being home i ask myself how do you know when to leave? Im not going to put my business out there for the world to know but I dont think this question should cross my mind as much as it does. When is the fighting going to stop, is he ever going to care about me rather than someone else, am i good enough? I just really thought things would change this time and it seems like their not going to. I gave up everything for him and it seems like it was the second biggest mistake of my life because look at where it has left me. I just dont know anymore. Please Pray For Me.

Our Home In Pictures!

Jobless and back on the hunt

First off I'm going to advise anyone not to be a cashier at Sears! They are the worst company to work for! They are inconsiderate sneaky lying cheating... Yes I'm sure y'all know where that was headed. I personally feel this way because of how wrong I was done. They tell you before they hire you that you have to get credit applications doesn't matter if they're approved or not. You're thinking easy ok.... WRONG!!! They forget to tell you that your job as a cashier depends on it. Now let me ask you in this economy do you want a sears mastercard with a 25% interest rate or a regular sears with the same interest rate no matter how good your credit may be? I didn't think so... You can buy a house and get a lower interest rate. That's just the cake right there, get ready because here comes the icing. After having a nice weekend off I go into work Monday ready to go when my manager asks me to come to her office. I'm thinking ok nothing serious haven't done anything wrong. Well I was wrong again, according to her she was writing me up for a "no call,no show" which was complete crap!!! I was scheduled off all weekend but another cashier told her I agreed to take his shift and approved it without even asking me!!! Toally not right and unfair! I told her I didn't know anything about it and all she could say was "oh well this has never happened before so I'm still writing you up" so I just said whatever and signed it to keep my job. After I sign it she starts telling me that my numbers are down and I've got a week to pull them up and when I tell her no one wants a card all she can say is other people get them. So we finished our business and. I went back to my shift stewing over this because it really pist me off because she gave me a week to get x amount of. Credit apps prod get wrote up again and be fired. It finally pisses me off I reach my breaking point. I ask another cashier to cover my register and I walk out leaving my name tag and a note simply stating I QUIT!!!I know I could of done it in a more professional manner but smooths enough. So the next say I went out job hunting turned in some apps and I now have an interview at Victoria secret tuesday at 1pm. Wish me luck! But take my advice steer clear of sears for a job!

Random Rambles Of Life

I'm not totally sure where to even begin with this post. So much has happened in the last two months, moving, ryans job change, our birthdays and me losing my job. I guess I can start with the moving part. It's been almost two months since we moved into our first apartment and each week small additions make it a home. I'm not sure if well be here much longer because of some info that leaked but until I know for fact I'm not saying much. As soon as I can get on a computer I'll upload some pictures :)

As for Ryan he's been a busy man working and now switching jobs to a better paying one (crossing fingers). He's worked so hard to get to where he's at and I couldnt be more proud. I love you R!!!

Hopefully well have pics up soon!!!

Finally Moved!!!!

Sorry for the lack of updates on the blogger front but i dont have internet right now and i just fount an app for my phone that lets me post :)

Things are coming along everything is unpacked and we are still working on getting everything we need but no one said it would happen overnight.

Here are some pictures of some of the apartment for now as i update new pictures will come!

Bed Pillows for Couch Pillows Say What?!?!?

Since me and Ryan are moving on a SERIOUS budget we are taking my moms old couch until we can do better. Its a comfy couch but its in some serious need of some TLC. So thats what i plan do to im going to clean it up, febreeze it and throw a couch cover over it, add some decorative pillows and call it done. Its a cheap and simple way to make something old look new!

Now onto the title of my post. As most of you know i work at Sears in the mall and as a cashier i work in all different departments but this week Ive been in home fashions only. Which this is dangerous for me since im moving and need to stay on budget but im resisting temptation pretty well until i seen the most adorable bed pillows on clearance for $4.99 each plus an additional 40% off on top of my discount! I couldn't resist, ok well maybe i could of so i put them on hold and looked at them for my entire shift wondering if bed pillows could be used as couch throw pillows. 

The answer to my question is YES! If you really think about it why do some pillows just have to be for one or the other? Its not like someone is going to come over to your house and look at them and say "oh aren't those suppose to be used for bedding?" If they do they must really be picky. I could understand if you had the matching bedspread in your room but if you find a good deal on them like i did especially on clearance most of the time there are only bits and pieces of the bed set left or like in my case there were only three of the pillows left. 

(I'm going to bring out the dark brown in them by doing a dark brown couch cover (pictured above) since these are mostly light brown.)

After much deliberation, and looking at them all day i finally decided to get them..... until i got back to the register after my lunch to discover they were GONE! i totally freaked out and went into panic mode (a little over dramatic i know) when all of a sudden one of my sweet co workers Emma came walking up behind me holding a big gift bag. I asked her what that was and she said a housewarming gift for you and ryan for when you move and when i opened it there were my pillows. I dont think i have ever had a job that I have connected with so many people and made so many friendships but its the little things in life that matter most. So if you want to use couch pillows as bed pillows or vise versa do it! You only live once why not enjoy the small but odd things in life?